recovery

after i listened many suggested from wili, tessa and ka cum, after i slept while i was sending sms to them. ikikikikik. i wake up and realize "he isn`t mine, and he is not the one who can make me smile, right? so why i have to think of him ? if he likes someone else, yaa terus??" asooooy daaaaaaaaah. ahahahaha. like tessa quote "me and him are different now. our thought are different too." many time we passed together, and its enough to fill my happiness. now i can fill it up with my friends. :) or you like wili quote "why i have to cry? what is the different between now and after usm?" yayayayayya both of you were right. Thank You so much. and thanks for ka cum patience in waiting for my consciousness. there is no use to feel sorry for ourselves. its oke i ever fell like this, it makes me stronger.

last night i saw my face in front of the mirror, i saw an ugly ducking with her swollen eyes. poor you girl ! -___-

then lets sing Jason Mraz sooong

Wake up everyone

How can you sleep at a time like this

Unless the dreamer is the real you

Listen to your voice

The one that tells you

To taste past the tip of your tongue

Leap in, the net will appear

I don't wanna wake before

The dream is over

I'm gonna make it mine

Yes I, I know it

I'm gonna make it mine

Yes I'll make it all mine

I keep my life on a heavy rotation

Requesting that it's lifting you up, up, up and away

And over to a table at the Gratitude Cafe

And I am finally there

And all the angels they'll be singing

Ah la la la, ah la la la

I la la la la love you

I don't wanna break before

The tour is over

I'm gonna make it mine

Yes I, I'll own it

I'm gonna make it mine

Yes I'll make it all mine

And timing's everything

And this time there's plenty

I am balancing

Careful and steady

And reveling in energy that everyone's emitting

Well I don't wanna wait no more

Oh I wanna celebrate the whole world

I'm gonna make it mine

Oh yes I'm following your joy

I'm gonna make it mine

Because I, I am open

I'm gonna make it mine

That's why, I will show it

I'm gonna make it mine

Gonna make it mine

Oh mine

Yes I'll make it all mine

this is the picture of the ugly ducking who just wake up from her bad dream