recovery

after i listened many suggested from wili, tessa and ka cum, after i slept while i was sending sms to them. ikikikikik. i wake up and realize "he isn`t mine, and he is not the one who can make me smile, right? so why i have to think of him ? if he likes someone else, yaa terus??" asooooy daaaaaaaaah. ahahahaha. like tessa quote "me and him are different now. our thought are different too." many time we passed together, and its enough to fill my happiness. now i can fill it up with my friends. :) or you like wili quote "why i have to cry? what is the different between now and after usm?" yayayayayya both of you were right. Thank You so much. and thanks for ka cum patience in waiting for my consciousness. there is no use to feel sorry for ourselves. its oke i ever fell like this, it makes me stronger.

last night i saw my face in front of the mirror, i saw an ugly ducking with her swollen eyes. poor you girl ! -___-

then lets sing Jason Mraz sooong

Wake up everyone

How can you sleep at a time like this

Unless the dreamer is the real you

Listen to your voice

The one that tells you

To taste past the tip of your tongue

Leap in, the net will appear

I don't wanna wake before

The dream is over

I'm gonna make it mine

Yes I, I know it

I'm gonna make it mine

Yes I'll make it all mine

I keep my life on a heavy rotation

Requesting that it's lifting you up, up, up and away

And over to a table at the Gratitude Cafe

And I am finally there

And all the angels they'll be singing

Ah la la la, ah la la la

I la la la la love you

I don't wanna break before

The tour is over

I'm gonna make it mine

Yes I, I'll own it

I'm gonna make it mine

Yes I'll make it all mine

And timing's everything

And this time there's plenty

I am balancing

Careful and steady

And reveling in energy that everyone's emitting

Well I don't wanna wait no more

Oh I wanna celebrate the whole world

I'm gonna make it mine

Oh yes I'm following your joy

I'm gonna make it mine

Because I, I am open

I'm gonna make it mine

That's why, I will show it

I'm gonna make it mine

Gonna make it mine

Oh mine

Yes I'll make it all mine

this is the picture of the ugly ducking who just wake up from her bad dream

downtown

demi apa laptop gw nge hank?oh mama,oh papa,laptop kesayanganku yg sudah rapuh dan termakan usia nampaknya harus distirahatkan dgn tenang dan digantikan dgn yg baru. Haaaah. Hopefully next year,i can get itb and find the new one. Amiin.

mengapa oh mengapa gw memaksakan me ngepost padahal laptop lg rusaaak? yak,krn di dalam kepala ini rasanya sudah penuh.lebay deng. abisnya ini lebih baik diceritakan. mau sms ka cum,tp takut dikira meng sms ketika butuh saja,jd gw lewat blog aja ceritanya. kita memakai bhs inggris ya?biar agak ga ketara.walaupun gw tau,ngepas.ahahahaha

ok,lets begin.

sometimes we are on the upstairs,but after that we are on the bottom. we should fell down before we are rising up.maybe we had been separated from many months ago, but isn't it to fast? i know we can not gathered again. smile and laugh while we were sitting. but i think it is to fast. i dont want you to pity on me. why i should wake up from dreaming if it just hurts me? why we have to know if it will over like this? why i have to cry if there isn't any reason for me to do that? why i have to worry if there is nobody to worry? and why i have to smile while my chest shaking? people might run,but not for the problem.

 Mozella-Freezing.

The clouds in the sky have cov­ered up my life

And the day just stays gray ’till it’s night

And the dark­ness out­side is a mir­ror to my eyes

‘Cause my soul won’t reflect any light

Oh, I can’t lie, I’m so lonely

Oh, make it right and just hold me

‘Cause I’m freez­ing, there’s no way to stay warm

Don’t you need me?

Left me out in the storm

How could you for­get me

My sun­shine has left me alone

You’re so cold

Freez­ing, like when rain turns to snow

Don’t you need me

Like an old over­coat

The sea­sons may change

But the ice still remains in my soul

You’re so cold

The chills down my spine

Are just mem­o­ries of a time

Now I’m haunted ’cause I thought

You were mine

I just can’t get away

I’ve been frozen in one place

And I am not mov­ing on

Tell me why, I still love you, boy?

zai jian

happy soooong

waking up from the bad dream isn't enough for realize that we are over. but i conscious enough that you aren't here now. goodbye, sayonara ! from now, i wake up and stop wishing. continue my life with a new soul and spirit. please don't look at me, we are different now.

 Alicia Keys - Doesn`t Mean Anything

Used to dream of being a millionaire, without a care
But if I’m seeing my dreams and you aren’t there
’cause it’s over
that just wont be fair
darling,
rather be a poor woman living on the street,
no food to eat,
cause i don't want nobody if i have to cry.
cause it's over
when you said goodbye!

all at once...
i had it all
but
it doesn’t mean anything
now that you’re gone
from above seems i had it all
but it doesn’t mean anything
since you’re gone

now i see myself through different eyes,
it's no surprise!
being alone will make you realize
when it's over!
all in love is fair I shoulda been there, I shoulda been there, I shoulda shoulda.


all at once...
i had it all
but
it doesn’t mean anything
now that you’re gone
from above seems i had it all
but it doesn’t mean anything
since you’re gone

I know I pushed you away
What can I do that would save our love
Take these material things
They don’t mean nothing
Its you that I want
All at once...
I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Now that you’re gone
From above,
Seems I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Since you’re gone

All at once...
I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Now that you’re gone
From above,
Seems I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Since you’re gone

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dari hp aja bisa, tapi dari komputer engga
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apa garagara gw buka jam 4 pagi mulu yaa?
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

happy sooong

akhir akhir ini kehidupan berjalan mulus mulus aja, yaa kalo ada jalan bergerigi Alhamdulillah bisa dilewati. semoga ini terus sampai nanti yaa, oiyaa ada lagu penambah semangat nih !

buat yang lemes, bete atau butek coba dengarkan lagu ini :D

Bruises

I tried to do handstands for you
I tried to do headstands for you
Everytime I fell on you, yeah, everytime I fell
I tried to do handstands for you
But everytime I fell for you
I'm permanently black and blue, permanently blue for you.

I tried to do handstands for you
I tried to do handstands for you
Everytime I fell on you, yeah, everytime I fell
I tried to do handstands for you but everytime I fell for you
I'm permanently black and blue, permanently blue for you-ooh-ooh-ooh

For you-ooh-ooh-ooh
So black and blue-ooh-ooh-ooh
For you-ooh-ooh-ooh.

I grabbed some frozen strawberries so I could ice your bruising knees
But frozen things they all unfreeze and now I taste like.... 
All those frozen strawberries I used to chill your bruising knees, 
Hot July ain't good to me
I'm pink and black and blue for you.

I got bruises on my knees for you
And grass stains on my knees for you
Got holes in my new jeans for you
Got pink and black and blue

Got bruises on my knees for you
And grass stains on my knees for you
Got holes in my new jeans for you
Got pink and black and blue for you-ooh-ooh-ooh

For you-ooh-ooh-ooh
So black and blue-ooh-ooh-ooh 
For you-ooh-ooh-ooh

Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo

oiyaaa, doain yaa semoga gw bisa cepat dapet PTN. ga sabar mau basket lagi, tangan dan kaki serta muka gw rasanya masi pengen item terus keringetaaaaaan. amiiiin ya Allah 

happy soong

everyone have a chance to change, have a chance to be some one better than that one (sounds like toni jons quote, right?), and have a chance to step forward and forget the past. i would like to say sorry to every people out there which i have been hurting you, both of you. every word that i said didnt mean that i wanted to hurt you. just say to me, if my attitude is sooooooooooooooo annoying you. please accept this apologize, i just want to change into some one better than yesterday.


Just Fix Me

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
[ Coldplay Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below
When you too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just watch and learn

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Happy Song

Biarkanlah lagu yang berbicara, sang penulis hanya diaaam. okeokee?
Mulai saat ini hingga waktu yang tak ditentukan.ehehehe. tapi ga 100% semua liriknyaa,ehuehehe. dadaaaa 

"The Heart Of The Matter"

I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And all the struggles we went through
How I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?

I've been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn't keep us warm

I've been trying to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
And all the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my heart is so shattered
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

All the people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on
You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you up inside

I wanna be happily everafter
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if you don't love me anymore
Even if you don't love me anymore